“The Long Way
Back” by Ridley C. James
“Once upon a time in a place far, far away, there was a magical
Castle
protected by powerful dragons.” Twenty-three-year-old Sam Winchester,
rubbed at
his weary eyes before letting his hand slide down his rough face, to
rest near
his brother’s lax fingers.
It had been forty-nine hours since they had arrived at the hospital,
and
still there was no change in his brother’s condition. Hopeful-was all
the
doctors would say. But hope was a rare commodity these days in the
Winchester‘s
world.
He glanced up at Dean’s pale, bruised and battered features, watched
as the
machines forced life-saving breath into his broken body, and continued
on with
the story. “The oldest of all his kind, the white dragon Astorim
protected the
sacred place, offering it as safe harbor to any who might be in trouble
and in
need of shelter.” The hunter’s troubled thoughts turned to Jim Murphy,
the lost
patriarch of the Brotherhood, and a watery smile graced his face. “One
such
person that Astorim afforded shelter to was a young, wayward prince
named
Samuel.”
The doctors had told Sam he should talk to Dean, provide a contact
to the
conscious world through words and touch. But amazingly enough, the
youngest
He and his brother had not processed Jim’s death, or Caleb’s alleged
demise,
before the demon struck again-taking over their father's body, nearly
killing
them all by using a semi-sized battering ram against the Impala.
No-they hadn’t
begun to deal with the loss, but it would take its toll…on all of them.
Picking up the older hunter’s hand once more, vowing to tell Dean it
was a
doctor-mandated chick-flick moment if he was ever called to the carpet
on it,
he sighed. Jim would want them to carry on. There was no other choice.
“Samuel
came to live in the castle when he was only a baby, flown there by an
emerald green
dragon named Athewm,” He explained, knowing if his brother were awake,
he’d
roll his eyes at the play on his middle name. “You see, Athewm was a
Sentinel
dragon, one that patrolled the borders of the castle, watching for any
signs of
distress, searching for those that might need help.”
“Legend has it that he rescued young Samuel from a terrible flame
that came
in the darkness of the night. It consumed the prince’s home and took
his
mother, the queen, but failed in killing the boy. The fire beast had
tried to
take Samuel also, but thanks to Athewm, the baby prince was snatched
from the
jaws of his would-be murderer and placed under the guard of the
dragons.”
Sam swallowed thickly, tightening his hold on the cold fingers
captured in
his grip, and continued in a rough voice. “Athewm kept watch over the
Prince as
he grew, aided in his guardianship by the fiercest of all dragons,
Oh’nathan
Jay.”
The young hunter‘s mouth quirked at the thought of his father, which
Jim had
cleverly transformed in the tale. “Now Oh’Nathan Jay was a black
dragon, and by
nature the dark beasts are ones of few words, and fewer sentiments. But
despite
his sometimes aloof nature, Oh’Nathan Jay battled valiantly to keep
Samuel from
harm‘s way. He wanted the boy to grow up strong and capable, so that he
could
someday defend himself and perhaps help the dragons destroy the fire
beast that
had taken his mother.”
“For you see, Oh‘Nathan Jay had a great love for the queen.” The
twenty-three year-old felt his eyes sting as the story unfolded in a
way not
too unlike the one he’d heard countless times as a boy. “It was a rare
and true
love rivaled only by the depth of understanding and concern that Athewm
had for
Samuel.” Sam swallowed hard again. “Sometimes the two loves were pitted
against
each other, and Oh’Nathan’s need for vengeance for his queen clashed
with
Athewm’s desire to protect the Prince.”
The young hunter’s voice trembled, as he failed to keep the emotions
at
bay-his defenses worn and shredded from the tireless vigil. “Athewm
loved
Oh’Nathan Jay, as the black dragon was his mentor and teacher, and like
a
father to him. But, alas, he loved the Prince more. Samuel had become
his
brother, his responsibility.”
“In the moment that he swooped in and rescued the swaddling from the
flames,
his path had been set. Keeping Samuel safe would be his destiny. But
still… it
always hurt Athewm when he was made to choose between the Prince and
the black
dragon. Because no matter how brave and valiant the green dragon was,
his heart
was his greatest weakness. His concern for others far outweighed his
own sense
of self-protection.”
“Fortunately for Athewm,” Sam reached up and raked his fingers
through his
brother’s hair, “there were others there to help him keep a reign on
Prince
Samuel and Oh’Nathan Jay. They looked out for Athewm when Samuel and
Oh‘Nathan
Jay did not.”
“Belac, was Athewm’s best friend. He was a guardian dragon also. His
scales
were blood-red like the darkest ruby, bright like the flames of the
fire
monster. And despite the belief by some that he was so because of being
touched
at birth by the evil beast that wreaked havoc on the land, Belac was
nothing
but faithful to the Dragons. And he was especially faithful to Athewm,
and
therefore Samuel also. He tried his best to protect them, when the
other,
older, dragons became caught up in battles. Even if he complained about
it. A
lot.”
Sam stopped talking, glanced towards the door. His mind traveled
down the
hallway to his father's room, where he psychically checked for the
other
familiar presence he’d grown use to over the last few days. A feeling
of relief
washed over him as he found what he was searching for, shuddered as he
remembered how close that connection had come to being erased by the
demon's
daughter. They had all believed Caleb was dead.
He licked his dry lips, pushed aside the thoughts of Meg‘s horrific
deeds,
and turned back to his brother. “Belac could read minds, and feelings,
but he
was especially good at reading Athewm, which was particularly difficult
task
for most, even those closest to him. Therefore, Belac often navigated
easily
around Athewm’s moods and offered some sort of reprieve-a respite that
the two
closest to him could not. Sometimes, Belac even stepped in and stood up
to
Oh’Nathan Jay. Although, he, like Atewm, revered and honored the black
dragon-looked to him for guidance.”
Sam sighed, squeezed his brother‘s hand again. “Sometimes it seemed
that
Samuel was the only one who didn’t see how special Oh’Nathan Jay was.
He didn‘t
understand that his obsidian heart only seemed hard because that was
the role
he had been dealt in life after the queen had perished. He was their
front-line
of defense. Their fighter. Their champion.”
“All Samuel saw was the fact that the black dragon constantly placed
the
other dragons in danger. Especially Athewm. Even when he swore to keep
them
safe, he seemed willing to sacrifice them to avenge the travesty that
had
befallen the queen. Sometimes Samuel believed that Oh‘Nathan Jay,
himself
committed the greatest wrong against them.” Sam rested his head against
his
brother’s arm. “Samuel couldn’t stand to see them hurt anymore-” he
choked as
the bitter taste of regret crept up the back of his throat, “couldn’t
stand to
see Athewm hurt…”
“So Prince Samuel fled the castle…to a land far away called
Stanford,” a new
voice added, and Sam jerked his head towards the doorway.
Caleb Reaves stood slouched against the pale concrete wall, his tall
frame
illuminated by the glowing lights streaming in from the hall behind
him.
“Sorry, I was always bad about giving away the ending.”
“That wasn’t the end.”
The older hunter slipped in, sidling up to Dean’s bed. He watched
the
respirator for a moment, then glanced back to Sam. “It was for the
dragons. The
castle kind of fell apart after that.” He waved his arm to encompass
Dean. “Athewm
kind of fell apart.”
Sam continued to watch him, his throat still tight from hearing his
agonizing thoughts tossed out so casually. “I didn’t do it to hurt
anyone-especially Dean."
Reaves sat on the edge of the bed, crossed his arms over his chest,
“Didn’t
say you did.” Still, those years that Sam had been gone were hard to
think
about. John changed. Dean changed. And neither for the better.
“But you don’t think I should have gone?”
The older hunter sighed. “I didn’t say that either.” He held Sam’s
gaze,
then his brow furrowed. “Didn’t we already have this conversation? At
Stanford
a few years back?”
Sam thought about the time he came home to find Caleb camped out in
his dorm
room. He had been so afraid that he had come to tell him that Dean and
his
father were dead. “Yeah, I guess we did.”
"Thought so," Reaves gaze traveled to Dean. “We ended up in a
similar situation back then. Didn’t we?”
Sam looked up at him. “We’ve been in situations like this too many
times.”
“So you said,” Caleb tilted his head. “Or Prince Samuel
said.”
“It was just a story.” Sam shrugged, “an old man’s bedtime story.”
“Right,” Caleb breathed, rubbing at his stiff neck. He considered
the set of
the kid’s jaw, the hooded eyes, and decided to let it go. He jutted his
chin
towards the unconscious hunter. “So…how’s Athewm doing?”
The younger hunter cleared his throat, released Dean’s hand so he
could
straighten up in his seat. “Same.”
Reaves frowned, then reached out to let his fingers rest against
Dean’s leg.
The psychic closed his eyes and Sam watched his face as he concentrated.
Caleb hadn’t changed much in the last two years. But his black hair
was
shorter, cut similar to Sam’s now. He had a faint shadow of a beard on
his
chiseled face, making him look like he’d planned it that way to give
himself a
mysterious, brooding appearance. It worked. The hunter looked dark and
dangerous-which he was.
Despite the hunter lifestyle, Caleb looked closer to Dean’s age than
his
actual thirty-five years. And when he finally opened his eyes and the
familiar
green-gold gaze locked on Sam and a hint of a dimple flashed at the
side of his
mouth, the younger hunter was struck, not for the first time, by the
idea that
Caleb could have easily passed as John Winchester’s brother. Which was
amusing,
considering he often passed himself off as just that. “Don’t worry,
runt. He’s
still in there.”
Sam nodded, pulled his attention and thoughts from the other man. He
let his
hand rest on his brother‘s once more. “Is he going to wake up soon?”
“Do I look like Mackland?” Caleb snorted. “That’s a question for the
doctor
in the family, I’m afraid.”
“No.” Caleb tapped his head. “But I did sense you checking up on me
earlier.” He grinned to take away the chagrined look on the other
hunter‘s
face. “You’re getting better, kind of like a sledgehammer now, instead
of a
wrecking ball.”
Sam sighed. “Sorry.”
“Don’t sweat it.” Reaves glanced down at his hands, twisted the
silver ring
around his finger. “We’ll just call it paybacks from that whole Raw
Head deal.
Besides the more you practice, the better you‘ll get.” He looked at
Dean again.
“I could even teach you how to do that with him, too, you know. Read
him.
Communicate-like I use to do with you when you were kids.” His slight
smile
morphed into his typical half-assed grin. “But I got to warn you.
Deuce’s head
is one scary place.”
Caleb nodded his understanding. “Don’t blame you for being scared.”
He
teased, but he knew all too well about the pitfalls of learning their
shared
craft. Reaves still wished John would have handled Sam‘s situation
differently.
If he‘d had training when he was younger, before his abilities had
become
active, things might have been different-perhaps easier. As it was, Sam
would
probably be stuck with the old trial by fire method. The story of his
life.
“How’s Dad doing?” Sam’s question brought Reaves’ distant gaze back
to him.
“He’s doing better. The doctor came in right before I headed this
way. He
said he could come down and sit with Dean after his lunch.” The older
psychic
glanced towards the door. “Speaking of which…you could take a breather,
man.
Get some real food. I’ll even treat.”
Sam shook his head. “No. I’m not leaving him. I need to be here when
he
wakes up.”
The older hunter took a deep breath, let it out heavily. “This
wasn’t your
fault, Sammy.”
“Stop reading me, Caleb.”
Reaves snorted. “I don’t have to read you to recognize that look
on
your face, Sam. You've somehow twisted this whole thing until
it all
folds in on your shoulders.”
“You weren’t there.” Sam said with a stubborn shake of his head. His
eyes
unconsciously went back to Dean‘s still form. “You didn’t hear what the
demon
said or…”
“Johnny filled me in on most of it.” Caleb raked his fingers roughly
through
his hair, as his mind conjured the scene in horrific detail. John
hadn’t
actually willingly shared anything. But it was amazing what pain
medication and
a semi-conscious state would do to a person’s mental defenses. It was
the
easiest John-snooping that Caleb had ever done. “And I had a front row
seat for
the car crash,” he added softly.
That image he hadn't gone looking for. But it had found him
just the
same. He could still recall the faint echoes of the vision that had
alerted him
to the accident. The one that had enabled him to call Bobby, to get
help there
before the cops towed the Impala. If only he could have reached the
Brown eyes met his gaze, and he was surprised to feel Sam’s presence
pressing against his conscious-trying to process his mood. The kid was
a fast
learner. "We were out of cell range, you know."
Reaves nodded, his lips quirked slightly. "Forget Jim's rule about
reading without permission?"
Sam grunted, rolled his eyes. "Like you ever obeyed that rule."
"I want better for you, young Padawan."
“Yeah, I know.” Caleb swallowed thickly, nodded. “He made Bobby
douse me
with Holy water, and draw one of his freakin’ circles around me, before
he’d
buy that it was really ‘me’ standing in his hospital room. Damned if
Cooter
didn't get a big kick out of that.”
“So, who was it?” Sam pressed, both physically and psychically.
“That died.”
Reaves winced, and he felt Sam back off. They definitely had to work
on his
finesse. “It was a guy named Daniel. He was a contact of mine in one of
the
cults that I keep tabs on.” The older hunter sighed, pinched at the
bridge of
his nose. “Damn demons can mimic voices, make a person believe what
they want
them to believe. Johnny was primed and ready after my phone call to him
about
Jim. Poor bastard, Daniel, was just in the wrong place at the wrong
time.”
“I'm sorry.”
Caleb shrugged it off. "Casualties of war and all."
"Like Jim."
Reaves’ face hardened. “No." His fists clenched, involuntarily.
"Jim was different. They wanted to hurt John-the Brotherhood. They're
going to pay for that.” He held Sam’s gaze for a moment longer before
letting
his glance go back to Dean. “For this.”
Sam nodded. “Caleb?”
“Yeah?”
“What if he doesn’t wake up?”
“He’s going to wake up, Sam.”
Caleb couldn’t imagine any other scenario. The other side had drawn
first
blood, taken too much from them already. Dean wasn't going to be the
next pawn
to fall.
“I don’t think I can do this without him.”
The older hunter took his eyes from Sam’s bowed head, glanced
towards the
door, hoping someone would come to his rescue. No one came. “You won’t
have
to.”
“The doctor’s said…”
“I don’t give a fuck what the doctors said. They don’t know
everything. And
they sure don’t know Deuce if they think a car crash is going to take
him out,
after everything he’s been through. He’s got a job to do. He’s not
finished
yet.” He waited for Sam to look at him again. "We're not
finished
yet. You got that?"
"Yeah...I got it."
Caleb pushed himself up from the bed. "Good, because I have a
feeling
it's going to take all of us to keep John from going all Black-hearted
dragon
on us."
'And Jim won't be here to help.'
Reaves raised his brows as the other psychic's words echoed silently
through
his mind. He was surprised at how much the kid naturally picked up on
now that
he had realized that he was gifted, or cursed, depending on how you
looked at
it. It was like the proverbial light-switch had been thrown. "You
know...they say old Merlin found a way to escape Death's clutches. That
he was
immortal."
A faint smile tugged at Sam's mouth. "Jim tell you that?"
The older hunter nodded. "Him and his fairytales."
Sam's grin faded and his gaze went to Dean. "Dean will really miss
him."
"Me too." Caleb replied, bringing the youngest
"I'm not going anywhere." Sam interjected, and Reaves sighed.
"Stop reading me, Sammy."
It was the younger man's turn to scoff. "I don't have to read you to
know that look, Damien."
Reaves gaze involuntarily went back to the unconscious form before
them, his
chest tightening at the familiar nickname."Just make sure you don't."
"Don't worry. I'm home." Sam said thoughtfully, realizing what all
it had taken for him to realize that. "I took the long way back, but
I'm
finally here." He squeezed his brother's hand. "Now, I'm just waiting
for Dean to do the same."
"That reminds me," Caleb said, suddenly, drawing the younger man's
attention once more. "Uhh...Bobby found this in the floorboard of the
Impala."
Reaves reached into his jacket pocket and pulled out an object
wrapped in a
grease-stained handkerchief. "Maybe it'll help."
Sam let go of his brother long enough to take the package. He felt
tears
sting his eyes as the cloth fell away and the cool, brass compass fell
into his
palm. "I can't believe he kept this thing."
"Neither can I." Caleb shook his head. "Damn piece of junk
got us lost in the Ozarks once. Like to have frozen our asses off. I
won't even
tell you where I got frost bite." He sighed. "Figured you must have
gotten it for him...seeing as how it didn't work and it had that sappy
shit
written on the inside."
Sam feigned a look of insult. "It came with that written in it, and
it's not junk. It's an antique."
"Right," Reaves grinned, shoved the other man roughly.
"Whatever you say, tough guy." He nodded towards Dean. "But if
pretty poetry gets Deuce back any faster, I'll spring for the chocolate
and
flowers myself."
Sam held the compass, knowing good and well that it hadn't been
Bobby who
had found it. "Thanks, Belac. You're a good friend."
Caleb groaned. "I'm going back to Johnny's room before you break out
in
song."
The younger hunter
watched him go,
reassured by the fact that the old castle wasn't completely empty. He
looked down
at the compass, turned it over in his hand before placing it in his
brother's
lax palm. He laid his own hand over the cool metal, intertwined his
finger's
with Dean's and held on. "I'm here, big brother." Sam rested his head
against their hands, closed his eyes. "Please come back home."
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